clumsy orange pig

Guess who just came? Don’t even guess, I think you won’t even get it right. It’s my dad. It’s been a while since I last saw him. More than a year I guess. Oh, it was my high school graduation. More than a year it is. I was teary-eyed when I saw him, I think get thinner and smaller. I don’t know. I just think of what kind of family we could’ve been. Just those hope you know that wouldn’t ever happen.

UGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! I don’t know what I should do with my self. I guess it’s the peer pressure or the fact that I am aging. I hate getting old. But between my college friends and I, I’m the only one who isn’t or hasn’t been to a relationship. I get jealous or it creeps me out when I see couples and I want to experience what I see with couples. This is all of those dramas that I’ve watched’s fault! T.T I sound so desperate but I’m not or maybe, I am T.T I don’t really want to be in a relationship cuz I’m scared T.T A guy best friend would be nice actually and much better. Some guy with no malice that you could share things with and my sched for this sem isn’t making that possible since almost all subject I have are majors and there’s like 4 guys in our class and 1 of them isn’t even talking to me -.- HELP! T.T GAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!

I kept thinking that when I have someone I don’t like and I don’t want to deal with them, I wait for them to die. I’m such a meanie >.<

Thank God my family doesn’t know about this or else, I’ll be dead. I have some relative who I don’t know if you’re concerned about us or you’re just helping yourself up from the things we have. You may be our friend but I mean, you have a house of your own so you should sleep there and you’re just another baggage from the huge baggage we already have. I may sound mean but that’s what I think. And don’t mess with my sister. She hates. She doesn’t have to be reminded of things and let her realize her own faults or else, when will she learn. Just whatever you’re doing, stop.

It doesn’t mean that since my aunt is rich that I’m also rich. She makes the money and only gives me some. So, don’t go asking me for money because I have limited of them and I’m not the one earning them. My aunt might have money but it doesn’t mean that you have to use me to get money out of her. Don’t you feel bad for the poor girl who works her ass of to work and here you are just waiting for miracles to happen. Since, I’m your good daughter, I don’t go yelling here in the house for you to shut up. Yes, sadly, this message is for my mom and not only her but also my other relatives -.-

Architects or engineers, please :)